The Baby
You are there.
I have finally put
a face to your ghost
in the cracked photograph.
I am the smile on your
face, the half-grin you
used to sway my mother.
Now, in the tall grass behind
the stone carved with your
name, I feel your breath
in mine, in the curious
letters of your unit and
rank in the quartermaster
corps. I take the cold stone
in my mouth, ring the
bell of this night hour.
If the ground could open
and set you free, I would
take your bones inside mine,
walk with you from this
cursed place of maggots and
worms, go to a ballpark, pitch
a fast ball in the dark, knock
one over the fence, drive
the moon into the trees,
list all the things we
never did on a paper
plane, daddy, and fly
it all the way home.
Blue Horses
Only the abandoned gate
flung wide open to a cemetery
in the dark is the beginning of
my dream. My algebra teacher,
Mr. Hawkins, who flunked me in
eighth grade, is the keeper of the dead.
I tell you, I have often wondered in
sweat-soaked sheets what the square
root of nothing is, what the birds
I drew in my Blue Horse notebook
meant. Meanwhile, there is no one
at the gate. Not even a crow to
dot the sky, nor wind to move
the hinges or make them creak, just
the muttering of the shades by my
bed in this motel room, my heart in
their rolled up flapping at the gate
where only the pardoned enter.
