Higher Education

Explore:

I’ve been funneled in and out of institutions like a lamb.

Carrying all my manners between my teeth, I jog uselessly to the board.

I chalk the date, the time, the material at hand.

We speak of Parataxis.

A faucet inside me breaks, won’t stop running.

I water everything: the long white desks, the softness of feet.

We speak of The syllabic—the nucleus of a syllable:

I’m leaky with regret.

We speak of sun, urns, the names Odysseus and Achilles

skip across my tongue: small, eloping pebbles.

I must believe in this room, in all it can offer me:

Riches, communion, flight, a turn towards the light.

And yet: I cannot buy it, this fraught net the teacher

draws with her lips: Repeat after me

Education a barbed wire used to bend?

How many moments across time have we seen language

curl to cruelty? It begins with the word, the world

Memory roams through a field of snow:

Repeat after me—A little red book,

spare bodies at the square—

and after?

The sun sinks,

a loose red pearl bobbing

in the white.

Carlina Duan is the author of poetry collections I Wore My Blackest Hair (Little A, 2017) and Alien Miss (u of Wisconsin p, 2021). Her recent poems have appeared in POETRY, Narrative Magazine, the Kenyon Review, and other places. Carlina is an assistant professor in the creative writing program at the University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill, where she teaches poetry.

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